A different context can change the meaning of many things, but your own meaning. You have learned to read life in another way, like you do with books. When you encounter a word, a certain adjective, extrapolate them from their context and analyze them to try to adapt them to your environment. They are the first attempts to spot lies hidden behind more attractive and inspiring words - and people . You are definitely not naïve, but you have discovered, gradually, a big number of false concepts and many false smiles you have been the unaware victims of. And feeling deceived is one of the most unbearable feelings for you. Fakes, liars, cowards, do not increase your hatred but your total indifference, a frosty blanket kills even the fiery and ardent passion of the beginnings. Go back to being selective, you are not for everyone.